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  Serenity prayer - this prayer has been my screensaver for some quite time now. I've been teaching myself to accept things I cannot change, prayed for courage to change the things I can and asked for wisdom to know the difference. Additionally, I know and feel deep in my heart, that I will be challenged, not only this summer, but also for the rest of the year. Challenges - such a bittersweet word. Sometimes it is so much easier to stay in your comfort zone and just let things be, and yes, I am aware of the fact, that there is no growth to be found in the comfort zone. You can't excel, you won't be at your best, when you're just hanging out in your comfort zone. Another thing I should reduce is to give way. I need to learn that I am not always on the road who gives way, I should realize that sometimes it's ok if I am on the priority lane. But that is even harder than leaving your comfort zone. I'd rather give way, than put myself first. So many what ifs - but an...

 2020. This year is something else. Before anything else, I am back here. What brought me here? I don't actually know. Maybe the death of my cousin? Or the end of an era at my workplace? Or just in general this year, because it's been quite harsh on a few people. Of course not everyone. Some found their passion, some were able to start anew and some continued doing them.  Since last year, the year I lost my mother, I stopped taking life so serious. 2019 taught me that nothing lasts forever, that plans are only plans, they don't need to push through - no matter how well prepared you are (so that's what you thought) This year the losses didn't stop.  I still wonder why my cousin had to leave earth so soon, so unpredictable. He had a bright future. Sad that his life ended after 22 years. Looking at our pictures, and our shared moments, it saddens me. Even though we were not as close as I am with my other cousin, we still had a special bond. I enjoyed his company. Losse...

I'm back readers! I don't even know if someone reads my blog, but I felt like writing again, because I am actually supposed to do something else. And my head is somewhere else anyway.  I've been really into books lately, I started many books, but I haven't found the passion yet to finish them - because none has "touched me yet".  Anyway - I slightly am getting really interested into Dr. Seuss books. Even though he is an author for kids and maybe young adults, his messages in his books are really deep.  Lately I've realized, that it's time to make spontaneous decisions and let your heart take control. I am actually a head person, everyone I know, knows that. I love to travel - and my last vacation (which I might also blog) made me realize that at such a young age, it's high time to see the world - with people you know by heart, or you've never been on vacation with.  And coming back to my blog, and reading some of my shenanigans -...

Senti hits Have you ever thought about doing anything you want, because it's your life and you don't care what other people will think about you? I certainly did and still do. My parents raised me with an important note that people will judge you with your actions and it will reflect on how my parents raised me. Me, being the good (which I am not, but people think I am) girl and trying to avoid problems, understood the advice wrong - when I was younger.  Human beings are not perfect. Noone is and will be. Friends think I am so perfect, nice and all. But I also have my bad side, once in a while. Which is not bad at one point. It depends on how you act and react. You can get mad. You can drop everything and quit. But you can also stay calm and let the storm pass. I remember my boss telling me that I should inhale and exhale and that I am doing a good job in keeping calm.  In my point of view everyone can live an almost perfect life, even if they have annoying, contr...

Helloo!  time is definitely not on my side, and this mood of mine is not influencing me so well. I wish I was more hardworking, I wish I was less lazy.. bla bla bla..  I HAVE TO CHANGE MYSELF. I have to be more hardworking if I want to. I want to be more hardworking, therefore I will be more hardworking!! Starting now. I can't blame my sprained ankle for being immobile. I am not immobile. I AM JUST FREAKING LAZY! Fellow colleagues of mine are on Class trips, or visiting friends but still doing their Final Thesis. And what am I doing? Sitting at home, pretending that I am busy... but in all honesty I am busy watching TV or surf YouTube. I do not like this attitude of mine. And I have already reached half time and I haven't written one single page.... not even a sentence.  Oh Lord, please help me. I know I've been asking for your help always, but please kick my ass harder! Kuya is stressing me also, but he doesn't count. He can't relate... I think. No mor...

Hello there, Okay okay, I admit it to myself. I've been studying almost half a decade. Since the University and the course doesn't really have a proper beginning, half time and end, I don't really feel a time pressure.. which is good I think? Why.. I have many reasons to answer this question. Studying in the "public University of Vienna" has given me a total different view of STUDYING. Unlike in school I was really pressured from the teachers to get things done on a special date, with a tight class schedule - fully loaded is the term my parents use. But in University, aside from my own parents, no one is pressuring me on whether I finish sooner than later. The professors, the institute, my friends.. noone pressures me. Because studying in Vienna is not something where you study for the sake of studying, but you study because you want to gain knowledge at your own pace. There are students who have been studying for 10 years, others have studied for only 3 year...

Hello Blogspot World, I am back. I don't know exactly if anyone follows my blog. But I missed writing in here. So I thought why not come back and let your mind talk. Here I am, sitting in my room listening to Justin Bieber and typing. As I've checked my last post was January 2012. That's a loooooong time. In this one year and almost a half SO MANY things happened. Yet everytime when friends ask me what I have been up to, I tell them "nothing special". Maybe because it is not that interesting to update them. Wait let me think: Last year I started with Basketball, then joined the Vienna Avengers, a group of ladies who didn't know each other AT ALL but managed to win the Filipino Basketball in Wien Championship. A S E V E N - zero. I am not bragging, but I also received individual trophies. Three officials and one inofficial. MVP 2013! :-) Dreams do come true. I never - in my wildest imaginations - thought of becoming the MOST VALUABLE PLAYER. Actually Bask...