So Majerel Kim, 19 years old and 100% Austrian but actually also 100% Filipino. Born and raised in Vienna, but born and raised BY Filipinos. You choose where to put me in, but I am quite happy where and what I am today, though it is kinda unclear.
I have always compared me to other people, when people ask me how I would describe myself, I actually have no idea. But now I have the time to put down some notes about me... Well I am a girl, but not girly-girl. I am not the type of girl who leaves the house with makeup and wears high-heels 24/7. I'm fine with sneakers, jeans and tshirt. I want it to be comfy for the whole day. I don't mind wearing jewelries but I also don't want to get the attention of other people. I actually don't want to attract other people with my getup. Actually there was a time when I tried to change myself, just to be accepted by the society where I live, but I learned that I don't have to change the me, to fit in the group. It's either they accept for who I am or not, or I have to accept myself - a fake me, a me I don't feel like to be. It's hard to be an actress forever, thinking you can't step back from that character because they might not like you, you won't be a high rated TVShow. Taking off the mask at night because they won't see you, and putting it on when you're going to meet... It's hard to play a game with yourself, you're losing your own personality. Since then I always remembered myself that it is good to be unique. Change is good, as long as you feel comfortable with the change you are making. But the people around you are also making a great impact in your life, you learn to be more self conscious.
I am definitely a shy person, very quiet but loud when I am with the people I feel comfortable with. Some people would claim to be openmindedperson, free-minded - but I am not that kind of girl. I don't like to share my feelings with my friends and I am - if you will - a closed person; only open at special occasions. Though nobody, not even me, knows when these special occasions are. I am emotional and sentimental when it comes to book- romances, movies and songs; but when it comes to my own life, I don't even know if I have already shed a tear in public. I find it hard to express my feelings, I guess friends think I am manhid - careless, but I don't like crying with other people. I love listening to problems of my friends but I don't like telling my problems to them. But sometimes when I am pretty full, I explode and tell them what is bothering me - but not the whole story. If possible I want to keep everything to myself, though I don't mind being the Problem-absorber for/of others. I love giving advices ...
I find it hard to trust people that's why only a few of people - actually I can only think of one person - who knows more than anyone else.
I'd rather cry alone, than in public. I always say I'm okay, even if I'm not. Well I actually am okay, but not 100%.
I don't get angry/get mad at people, I only have disappointmet in store. I try not to avoid people, but because of my character, me being shy - I'd rather want to hide somewhere - nowhere to be seen. That's why a lot of people say that I am an ignorant and masungit. ;p
Sometimes I am more selfless than selfish - when I am selfish people perceive me being selfish always.. or maybe I am selfish at wrong times and wrong places.
Most of the time I am being childlike and always on jokes and being sarcastic that's why a lot of people get it wrong... get me wrong, for whichever reason. I am never serious, because people are taking life too seriously, I balance their life - I make them laugh, well I try to.
And I don't know why I wrote all of these, maybe because I actually don't care who is reading this, yet it feels good to let your mind talk and write. Anyways these are some characteristics of the me .. this is real, this is me...
♥ mayerelle
I have always compared me to other people, when people ask me how I would describe myself, I actually have no idea. But now I have the time to put down some notes about me... Well I am a girl, but not girly-girl. I am not the type of girl who leaves the house with makeup and wears high-heels 24/7. I'm fine with sneakers, jeans and tshirt. I want it to be comfy for the whole day. I don't mind wearing jewelries but I also don't want to get the attention of other people. I actually don't want to attract other people with my getup. Actually there was a time when I tried to change myself, just to be accepted by the society where I live, but I learned that I don't have to change the me, to fit in the group. It's either they accept for who I am or not, or I have to accept myself - a fake me, a me I don't feel like to be. It's hard to be an actress forever, thinking you can't step back from that character because they might not like you, you won't be a high rated TVShow. Taking off the mask at night because they won't see you, and putting it on when you're going to meet... It's hard to play a game with yourself, you're losing your own personality. Since then I always remembered myself that it is good to be unique. Change is good, as long as you feel comfortable with the change you are making. But the people around you are also making a great impact in your life, you learn to be more self conscious.
I am definitely a shy person, very quiet but loud when I am with the people I feel comfortable with. Some people would claim to be openmindedperson, free-minded - but I am not that kind of girl. I don't like to share my feelings with my friends and I am - if you will - a closed person; only open at special occasions. Though nobody, not even me, knows when these special occasions are. I am emotional and sentimental when it comes to book- romances, movies and songs; but when it comes to my own life, I don't even know if I have already shed a tear in public. I find it hard to express my feelings, I guess friends think I am manhid - careless, but I don't like crying with other people. I love listening to problems of my friends but I don't like telling my problems to them. But sometimes when I am pretty full, I explode and tell them what is bothering me - but not the whole story. If possible I want to keep everything to myself, though I don't mind being the Problem-absorber for/of others. I love giving advices ...
I find it hard to trust people that's why only a few of people - actually I can only think of one person - who knows more than anyone else.
I'd rather cry alone, than in public. I always say I'm okay, even if I'm not. Well I actually am okay, but not 100%.
I don't get angry/get mad at people, I only have disappointmet in store. I try not to avoid people, but because of my character, me being shy - I'd rather want to hide somewhere - nowhere to be seen. That's why a lot of people say that I am an ignorant and masungit. ;p
Sometimes I am more selfless than selfish - when I am selfish people perceive me being selfish always.. or maybe I am selfish at wrong times and wrong places.
Most of the time I am being childlike and always on jokes and being sarcastic that's why a lot of people get it wrong... get me wrong, for whichever reason. I am never serious, because people are taking life too seriously, I balance their life - I make them laugh, well I try to.
And I don't know why I wrote all of these, maybe because I actually don't care who is reading this, yet it feels good to let your mind talk and write. Anyways these are some characteristics of the me .. this is real, this is me...
♥ mayerelle
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